A New Approach to Mercury Retrograde

by Natasha Botkin 

Poor Mercury what did this dear planet ever do to humans.  Why is this planet getting so much flack.  This planet represents clear thinking, communication, truth and travel.  During a retrograde, it appears that Mercury is spinning backwards.

Some may say that this causes electronics to go haywire.  Some may agree that communication is difficult.

This can be viewed from a negative propensity.  However, one can turn this around and view this as a truly a beautiful sacred gift.  It is a gift.

Mercury is presenting one with a way to honor themselves.  How better to honor one’s self with a gift of truthful communication.  A gift of communicating and traveling to be your true authentic self.  For too long humans have created a vortex of negativity about Mercury, and yet Mercury presents a great gift.  When one truly turns inward and communicates with their heart and soul (higher self), one is truly able to communicate avidly with another.  

Thus Mercury presents ever so often the opportunity to let go of the distractions, go deep inside and release that which no longer should be able to rest within one’s self.  Only then can you be the true you.  

Thank you Mercury for helping us to cycle back and reflect the lessons of our spiral.  By granting us the ability to let go of a the lesson.

May you be able to change the angle of the camera lens and receive this wonderous gift. 

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings

Natasha

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Your Beautiful Heart

by Natasha Botkin

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Sitting in my garden, I know that I am beginning to write.  What, hmmmm?  You see, I write this blog from heart and divine spirit.  Someone recently said, I seem scattered, I need more clarity; this individual coming from a place of love.  I patiently listened, and then turned inward.  People can say what they feel. Essentially,  the most important is that I listen to my truth and you listen to your truth.  No two persons’ truths are the same.  Yes one may have a similar path; yet, this is their path and their path alone.

People will help guide, suggest, even wish to lead one’s path.  Part of the lesson, is to turn inward and listen to your own heart’s wisdom.  

Recently, I wrote a blog about others wanting to bombard me with their ideas.  Is it ideals or beliefs?  Is it safe to write this here?  I have found others wishing to turn my words around to their own fancy, what works for them, their belief, their ego.

Divine messages can and will appear in many forms through signs, people and such.  It’s with one’s own guidance that is the necessary component.

Me turning inward listening to the wisdom of my heart. 

I know what my heart says or rather feels.  Our hearts are the santity of our life.  One can live without parts or even partial parts of their body.  One cannot live without their heart.  The adage “heart and soul,” super true.  Truer than most suspect.

It all flows back to what’s in your heart.

At the Magical Blessings Healing Center, we can help one transforming,  unblocking and begin to understand their truth, their true heart.  MagicalBlessingsHealingCenter

There is a June monthly special for individual sessions on the about us page and on the services page lists more details.

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings, 

Natasha 

Receiving Does Not Make One Weak

Receiving Does Not Make One Weak

By Natasha Botkin

If we look at the genus name  or the eucalyptus flower, it is derived from the Greek eu, meaning “well”, and kalyptos, eucalyptus flowermeaning “cover.” This name refers to the well-covered flower buds – a very fruitful tree.  If we look to ancient symbolism this is a tree of wealthy abundance and foretelling.  If we look to an angelic meaning this about removing the barriers to allow your angels to assist you in receiving your miracles.

Almost a year ago, I was given the idea of “if you build it they will come.” Now, I have to admit, I took this a bit too literal and thought love the movie Field of Dreams and enjoy baseball; but have no desire to build a baseball field in the middle of a farm.  My angels find me quite humorous and shake their heads, no, no that is not what we mean.

Eventually, I did understand their meaning and this began an enormous journey.  Much of which is still progressing, much like a work in progress. I, so wish I could say that transformational mystery school of Atlantis was up and running. You see, I have had to learn to adjust to receiving.

One thing that I have a bad habit of, is being the naysayer and sage that people seek out; yet, do they truly help, assist me.  No, in truth they greedily grab the love and light, and my dear sweet soul is like, we are done with that.  You need to receive , there is no way you can continue on, alone on this journey.  I remind Amel, what about Tru.  She smiles, “Aw our BeLoved, what about him?”  My response, “he is supposed to join me in his esoteric form, and yet my BeLoved Twin Flame plays with the demonic ego allowing his ego to be fed of the lies; how will he ever join me, if he continues to allow the lies to hurt him, hurt me, hurt we.  One moment, we are in sync and all is well and the next, he is off lost in translation fueling himself with fear. ” Amel reminds me, “Patience dear one.” Add in a million sighs, yes I do have my own downward moments and that is one that makes me sigh a deep heavy, are you kidding me kind of sigh.

Sorry, I was off on a tangent.  Anyways, receiving is not easy for me.  I used to think due to old pattern and beliefs that it was a sign of weakness; “a strong person can do it all.” If I look to my maternal grandmother, she did it all, my maternal grandfather quite immature and held down a job, but that was about it.  Pretty much the same for the paternal grandparents as well.  So I learned to take care of me, by being independent.

One of my dear crystal children students recently told to me, “Ms. Botkin, you cannot do it all. You are tired by just trying to be you. Do people know how tough it is to do the things we cannot speak.  These stupid humans do not see, nor will they.”  Out of the mouth of babes!  Well said my dear one!

In truth, it was lies that my ego fed me.  I cannot do it all.  I am weary, I need help.  In steps that symbolic reminder from my angels of the sweet eucalyptus flower.  One this is about wealthy abundance and allowing me to receive.  This is a work in progress, one moment I receive a beautiful pillow from a friend and the next I am, oh dear.  As a child, I was the “do over” queen.  So I have to press the “do over” button and begin anew.

The eucalyptus flower calling out to me, reminding me. I am sitting back and allowing my angels to work their miracles with me, guide me by allowing the ability to receive.  As Archangel Michael has stated, “You are much stronger when you teach, step back and allow you students to do this on their own; however, dear, you also need to be the student of allowing and receiving. Miracles abound dear one.” 

May you also allow the ability to receive.  Much Love and Light!

Magical Blessings, Natasha

The Past of One’s Mistakes Can Herald Through the Times….Release dear one

By Natasha Botkin

Natasha (Princess) and Roy (Knight)Recently, I was discussing with another how my past lives keep showing up.  Sometimes one at a time, sometimes many all at once.  One thing is for sure, the divine has me on overdrive and there are days where keeping up with human experiences are beyond overwhelming.

A week ago, I was underneath not one, but two different sinks to clear blocked drains.  As I am attempting to put the pipes back together a sob commences and the feeling of get ready shines through.  Oh no, water means deep emotions and how deep is this going to go.  It is not like we are ever given a definitive releasing map. It is, just the know that something is going to happen, and the happening will arise as needed.

How deep did this go.  Centuries back, back to when all of the troubles began for me and my twin flame. One thing happened which led my BeLoved to not act like himself and this led me to not act like myself.  I cannot say why I did not confess my sins (not really a sin–rather a massive mistake).  Instead, I have been trying correct this mistake over and over. My loving heart, shamed, how could I have allowed this to happen: I am of love.  It is almost like the movie “Groundhog Day,” except instead of reliving one particular moment.  Mine catapulted into lifetime after lifetime, trying so hard to hide this enormous mistake from my BeLoved, maybe this time, I can correct it, and thus, only to be heralded to untimely death after death.

Now, when I mention how deep–Oh it was deeper than the depths of most oceans.  Funny part about all of this, because I have to allocate the humor to something so large, is that my BeLoved in this lifetime loves to scuba dive.  One thing he taught me was no matter how intense the storm is at or near the surface, if you go down x amount of feet; yep, I have forgotten the exact amount, and yes he is spiritually smiling, as how am I ever going to learn to scuba dive, if I cannot recall the depth meters. The water will be calm X amount of feet down.

So when for the fourth time in a week, 2 clogged pipes, a clogged garbage disposal and a flooded basement. I decided it was time to give my BeLoved’s idea a whirl.  You see, my body reacted to all of this in a way that no longer serves me.  Anger exuded from me, and this left me in pain, not an emotional, a physical pain.  I have moved to my divine feminine and to feel the rage, anger, shame move through me brought out great amounts of physical pain.  My spiritual mentor helped me clear many energies, as this was not fully clearing with me–my BeLoved also physically pained and not behaving like himself…It was too deep, too intense.  So, she cleared the way for me to submerge myself into the deeper waters going down, down, down.

Dreamtime work brought forth my answers, my shame, my guilt; the worst part what will happen when my BeLoved twin flame realizes what I did.  Will he hate me, will he fear me, will he banish our love?  The beauty and surprise were “My silly girl, I have known all along, and have waited to hear the truth from you.  Why did you fear me?”  My response, “Do you wish to hear our truth or do you wish me to lie to you as all the others that fear you?”  My BeLoved, “Truth, and when did you ever fear me?”  My repose,  “One because of your mistake, you behaved in a way that was not like you; thus I made my mistake and I am ashamed of my mistake, I went into hiding, like a lost scared little girl and with each lifetime since have been put to death; deaths that did not belong to me, if I just shared with you–the truth. Now that I have come into my truth-I refuse to hide; my cloak of invisibility gone-I stand and shine my full glory of love and light for all to see!”

I have come to realize that the angst that created my BeLoved and my separation of this lifetime, stems from mistakes of centuries ago.  Spiritually, I have made amends with my BeLoved twin flame; I do not know have the knows of this lifetime and can only pray that his esoteric form can truly forgive me and accept my love, my light, my powerful high priestess self. For to know me is to love me.

Much Love and Light

Magical Blessings, Natasha

Peaceful Ascension

By Natasha Botkin 

Recently as I drove down the road watching commuters battling out for a space in the line of traffic, I sat back and thought why?  Why does one cram themselves into a line that does not go much further than one car length.  This brought me back to a conversation with my spiritual teacher.  Steer the course, do not ver to the left or right.  A song plays over the speakers, the lyrics of a change, a battle, of peace….

Which brought me back to a moment, a moment of an exchange with a wise woman.  A stranger really to me, all of my life, I have people stop and tell me their life stories.  My children often asking why would a stranger tell me that?  I have just accepted that people come to me to tell their stories.  Sometimes, they need a wise voice of innate wisdom to shine forward without judgement, without conviction, a person to listen, to help them release this.  Satinglass spiral

This lady looked at me and said, “Wow an ascended one, I’ve never met one in person before and you look nothing like I would think an ascended one should look like.”  I remember looking at her and wondering, but not saying anything, as I knew she had a story that she would share; and what a beautiful story it was.  It wasn’t the story; it was what she said, this was years ago; “ascended, ascension; isn’t for  the faint of heart and it will take much energy, love and light dear one, be prepared as it will come and you will easily glide up the spiral.” 

At the time, I was preparing for a major divorce and custody battle.  Little did I know that was much easier than ascension.  My spiritual teacher will gently guide me, and yet the human psyche at first wanted the ego to rage, bark and scream.  Almost like a two-year old not being allowed to have a cookie before dinner.  Yet, this is going to happen, go with grace and it will come with ease.  Some has been filled full of ease, and some would be easier to deal with a two-year old having a tantrum.

Come back to peace, love and light.  In steps the next wise woman, I am walking in the store and ran right into her.  She remarks, “Darlin, get your head out of the clouds.”  I look her, smile and say,“Ha clouds, that too easy, try galactic travel or what dimension did I float off to, traversing the mundane of today’s humanistic mess.”  She smiled and replies, “Ascension is not easy, especially in the modern ways.  You do not look like one, so many may not even realize. It’s not the appearance; it’s the light, the love that matters.” 

I am a special education, so I am a pro at what is called “wait time.”  Well, I am a pro with others, “wait time,”  me well in truth, I am not usually a slow learner, and  yet, may need an accelerated IEP to slow my horses, so to speak. (As my spiritual teacher often says, “Dear the Aries in you.”)   I look at her and wait, she smiles a big grin and says, “Dear one, you are doing much better than you give yourself credit for; however patience is necessary. The biggest patience that you need is your own transformation to ascension. you are almost across that bridge to a major level up, be patient.  Years ago, you were told that you do not look like an ascended one, in truth, you’re a more modern version. Your spiritual mentor has recently given you knowledge of the changes that will come.”  Then she smiles and says, “Be Kind, Rewind,” and instance is gone, I look around the aisle and do not see her.

Slowly, I approach the checkout; barely able to speak to anyone, and yet like moths to the light people dance around me.  I pay for my items and sit in my vehicle.  No thoughts, nothing, just sit and allow the wisdom that was also downloaded settle and absorb into my light.

The latest wise woman, was the same week as recent the crystal light activation January 2015, the full moon and just after the winter solstice.  It has taken me a bit to settle into the next step.  One moment, I am walking in the divine feminine goddess of innate wisdom that heralds the divine wisdom of love and light; and the next I am submerged in a hot bath trying to release the negative energies that seems to want to invade my aura.

And in truth, I do not wear flowy robes, probably never will. I am more of a mover. singer, dancer with the heart of a youth filled full of love and light. Hence the comment “Be Kind, Rewind.” Go back to my heart, my joy, my peaceful grace.  One thing that has come about with the crystal light activation is peace, harmony and joy.  We need much more of it.  If ya feel like dancing, dance; if you feel like singing, sing.  Life is to be lived and enjoyed with a beauty that is deep within us all.

Magical Blessings of love and light!

Natasha

 

Crystal Light Activation

by Natasha  Botkin 

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January 3,2015, there was a crystal light activation that entered Earth’s atmosphere.  Those who can see, hear, feel at first wondered what had happened.  We just celebrated the new year, preparing for the full moon and what is happening.  My ascension and sensitivity went to an extreme.  I felt like I had been literally punched, my face, my jaw, my skull ached; the masculine seeping, weeping as it leaving me.

Here comes the full moon, the intensity settled, yet I could feel something brewing just underneath.  My vibrational manner changed.  I cried at a drop of a hat, worst of all unable to shield my empath ways, taking on and absorbing so many negative energies.  Others around me who are also sensitive were also affected, many of these individuals crying, unsure as to why.   The most difficult moments, how do I explain this unknown, especially when the unknown are children?

I felt my heart space expand and grow even more.  People would say,”Did you know that your crystal is glowing” or they would look away not wanting to admit to what they just witnessed.  My heart had the most tremendously, wonderful energy pulsing through.  The harmonics grew, those who have ascended are growing, opening, preparing for the next wave.  This is just the beginning to a new wave, a new way, more heart, more grace, more love, more light, more peace.  Crystal light heart

If you are one of those who are effected, please seek solace from those who can and will support you.  This is absolutely beautiful, and necessary; yet it can leave one overwhelmed. Enjoy something that brings you joy.

Much love and light to you!

Magical Blessings

Natasha

Winter Solstice Interlude

By Natasha Botkin     Mother Gaia Tree Earth

 

Normally, I am on overdrive, a fast paced personality. Others asking me to rest or take a moment to slow down.  Now, from my typical pace, I have slowed down, and yet I know that others would disagree.  I hear the call of the birds, nature, mother Gaia.

Winter Solstice is approaching and mother Gaia is slowing her pace, by beginning the earth’s turning at a slower rate.  I feel the rev of my internal engine begin to slow its pace.  Ordinarily, I would take a day, a brief moment of rest or as my BeLoved would say zonk out from being on overdrive for too long.

I recall a conversation that we once had, we were newly in love, and on our way home from a magical weekend.  I was nervous with the standstill traffic, would we make it in time to pick up my youngest son, and my BeLoved would be meeting my youngest son for the first time that evening.  Am I ready for this, my mind drifted, when I hear, “I have ADHD.”  I return, snap to the sound of his voice almost spitting out the beverage in my mouth and respond, “Are you kidding me, you are more mellow than I am.”  He smiled one of his, as I would begin to learn, patient smiles and the wisdom that would ensue shined forth, ever gentle, ever patient, teaching me to slow down.

He shares with me his ways of slowing down.  I look at him and say, “I meditate, I practice yoga.”  Again that gentle smile of wisdom as the conversation continues.  With our seperation, I have once again picked up a quick pace. 010

Snap, we are back to this moment in time. The dishwasher konked out and the flat line is not a thrilling moment to one with a busy life.  Yep, God takes drastic measures to grab my attention. The angels smile, she is our “soap opera, let’s pop some popcorn.”

Now I am smiling as I recall that moment in time with my BeLoved. The boys are washing and drying the dishes while I am making salmon chowder.  Something inside is listening, slow down, breath.  The mother in me says slowly breath.  Time to prepare for the winter.

My body is slowing its pace, breathing and feeling mother Gaia guide me.  I lay down to rest, relax. Yes I can go into deep meditation, almost comatose; however my true nature is the engine that revs along at a high rate of speed and then crashes.  I hear the ravens, the seagulls, the blue jays. I can feel mother Gaia guide me to a deep meditation.  Slow down, rest, relax. Prepare for the winter, prepare your body to freely play at a slower pace.  You need this.  Rest, write about it, others need to rest and slow their pace.  I am become one with mother Gaia’s guidance, slowing my pace and enjoying this wonderful wisdom that had been brought forth.  Mother Gaia resting

May you also slow your pace and rest.  Ask mother Gaia to guide you; she will gladly guide you.

Much Love and Light.

Magical Blessings

Natasha