I’m Worth it! Your Worth It!

by Natasha Botkin 

Cat looking in mirror sees lion

Self-esteem can be defined by Webster’s dictionary as a noun self–es·teem \-ə-ˈstēm\ : a feeling of having respect for yourself and your abilities.

Self worth can be defined by Webster’s dictionary as noun \-ˈwərth\: a feeling that you are a good person who deserves to be treated with respect.

Some may say they are the same; some may same they differ from one another.  Instead of focusing on this, let’s focus on a key word; both of the definitions begin with the word feeling.

Let’s define feeling via Webster’s dictionary as noun feel·ing \ˈfē-liŋ\: an awareness by your body of something in it or on it: an emotional state or reaction.

Therefore, a feeling is an awareness by your body, a sense, a presence, a vibe.

I have known individuals who have loads of outward self-esteem, but deep down inside are screaming for self-worth. This is the body receiving divine knowledge that something is amiss.  Emotionailty is that force of a prideful ego dispersing lies.  Sorry, Charlie the Sunkist Tuna, ego lies, deceives and creates a falsehood that is not of divine truth.  

Breaking the belief and pattern that unfolds is as deep as the depth of where a tuna lives.  One needs to dive deep to unfold their truth.  The feelings that one just does not wish to feel.

In my collaboration with 30 other Authors “The Wisdom of Midlife Women 2,”  I share my story, “Feelings of Resilience.”  In fact what I am now bravely sharing is that this story was almost left tabled and not birthed.  When it showed, my ego wanted to scream and kick like a two-year old having a tantrum.  I had to step back and dive deep; when I emerged, my story was powerful, ready to be shared and shown to the those would enjoy this sharing.  WOMW2_CoverIMG 2

Easier said than done, right!  

I understand in ways that most may not realize.  Once upon a time, I wore a cloak of invisibility afraid to show the world my true abilities.  As a child I was ridiculed by friends and family.  Now, I value my divine gifts; this is their loss. and I am here to shine my love, light and strength.  Our powerful divine did not mistake my worth as others did.

The divine bequeathed me with an enormous amount of gifts.  One is being an Empath.  Before I dove deep for the story “Feelings of Resilience, I had this false sense that as an empath, I would take what others could not handle those energies/feelings left me tired and worn out.  I did not deserve this, this is not what this gift is about.  So, diving that I believed to be deep, gently guided this was not deep enough, oh jeeze; my Beloved’s voice and scuba diving knowledge of the human world, right by my side; “I am here ‘My Love.’  It’s okay, you’ll be okay.  There’s a storm brewing, you know what you must do, and even though I cannot be there with you, I am still here and will monitor from afar; you are not alone, you are never alone.”

So dive, I went, it is what I must do!  I dive, further and further and I rest swimming amongst creatures of the unknown.  I am ready to submerge, I know that spiritually my BeLoved will be there with the divine, angels, Mother Mary and Yesuah.  When I submerged they cradled me and helped me to better understand what just happened on the conscious level.

The story emerges, so does my worth in a way that is incredible, words cannot describe what is happening; it is a feeling, me taking back my life, my song, my dance. The greatest moment of clarity was visiting Ikea with a friend; she turns after we leave and says, what is different.  I smile as I know what happened.  One day I will share.

The greatest gift that the divine gave to me at that moment was the return of feeling.  Self worth tackling what once toppled me; now I walk amongst crowds and do not absorb their energies.  Rather, I honor and treasure myself to shine my divine light and divine love at full strength so that others may also feel this beautiful gift.  The other divine gift, the ability to do so without absorbing their “stuff.”  Me standing like a beacon of love and light shining for all to see and loving my worth to know that all is well- my power turned on, and I no longer need to “absorb” every little energy; these need a special location and I can deflect this to where it belongs; it does not belong to me as I am worth so much more and cherish myself by honoring my divine worth.  

May you too, honor and cherish all that you are! May you too, turn on your power! 

Much Love, Much Light, and Magical Blessings, 

Natasha 

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Unforeseen Forces

by Natasha Botkin 

How many times, have you written a positive affirmation, meditated, tried, cried, pleaded, begged only to seem to return to something that just did not make sense.  It may not be what you think, an unforeseen force, that needs to be released.  I smile, as I hear some who read this, oh I will do this myself, I’ll turn to…just know that you are not alone and do not have to do this alone.

I will begin the blog post, with a grateful thank you to my paternal grandmother.  In life, we had tiffs and riffs, in death, she has been a huge advocate.   Her latest moment of love was a serious unforeseen force that needed to be released.  This does not belong to me.  It belongs to others and their discord unwelcome.

Often times, one may feel as why does this keep happening.  I am trying so hard to do it right.

You see, I am a powerful manifestor in a way of magical alchemy.  One day I thought I’d love that, hmm how can this be achieved and poof here it was.  Yet, as soon as it is here, this seems to leave.  What am I discussing: money.  I am always divinely provided for and have had many opportunities to move in a different direction.  I had much more and lost it all.  Having to reinvent myself.  Rocking the foundation and to begin to build anew.  Unfortunately, it has always felt like a weight on my shoulders.  Even when I had a comfortable bank account, there was something, almost a self-fulfilling prophecy that it will go, so I would hold on tight to my bag.   Me shaking my head, why, what is happening.

I hear the energies of ancients, of my grandparents arguing.  The vision comes forth, I sit and watch this screen, as if I am watching a movie.  My paternal grandmother, kindly nudging everyone, “This was our pain to bear, not hers.  Let her go, she has much to do.”

I saw me, all the money that wants to come to me, and then me dragging the bag, what I will call the family’s financial woe is me bag. Oh my goodness there is a hole in my bag, the bills wafting in the wind and then a wall or rather a block, I am trying to peer over the wall to see.  Youhoo, can anyone hear me, please help me, I do not know what to do.  Why does this keep repeating….

Images of those who came before me, the financial worries of loss, hide it, so no one will know what we have, don’t let go, we cannot go hungry again, the list goes on and on.  What I am seeing is the financial money block that I did not “see.”  No matter how many affirmations, this would not relent, no matter the mindset, the unforeseen forces held tight.

My paternal grandmother pleading, “Let her go, this is our pain, our worries, our fears; she does not need this, let her be set free from our madness.” 

The vision so strong, it moving in a different manner.  Me clearing, releasing that which is not mine.  Me smiling, feeling lighter, picking up a bag, where shall I take this all of my monies.  I see a door opening for me.  With the family ties releasing, it is now up to me to do what’s best for me.  I can see the shining glimmer of hope, “the future’s so bright I gotta wear shades.”

This was a family financial woes and feelings of money.  A financial block that kept me from truly achieving everything I’ve dreamt.  As my dear grandmother stated, this does not belong to me.  I am not them, they are not me.  One does not need to be saddled with the ideas that are not theirs.  Go forth and be the best, truest, you that, you can be!! 

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Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings, 

Natasha 

Journey to the Peppermint or Should I Say Hail to the Peppermint

by Natasha Botkin 

Peppermint

Not sure if I should call this journey or hail to the peppermint.  You see, I began to notice that I was being called to enjoy peppermint.  I found pure delight in my organic facial wash of rosemary and mint.  Next, I found myself enjoying peppermint leaves probably in ninety percent of my beverages.  One day as I took a nourishing soul bath, lined up was peppermint galore, even peppermint tea – aromas of pure delightfully wafting through every orifice.  My body happily cleansing and clearing the mucus, digestive concerns and inflammation that had built up.

Now I am not saying that there is anything wrong or dislike with this; what, I am saying is, my wise heart and soul knew that I needed the healing qualities of peppermint.  I was in a toxic work environment and peppermint called out to me in many ways; beauty, eating and healthcare.

As I began to release the negative toxins, my body pleaded for a natural, healthy, soothing manner upon which to heal.  Peppermint answered the call.  Oh thank goodness peppermint not only answered; I also adore peppermint.  In fact when my peppermint essential oil ran out, I felt a moment of pouting.

Peppermint was a favorite healing component of the ancient Egyptians; they were quite advanced in their diagnoses and treatments of various illnesses. For me and others who need it, peppermint is a great healing benefit.

Here are many different uses for peppermint: 

Pure peppermint leaf can used for more than just tea.  Peppermint tea hot or cooled is wonderful for an upset stomach or digestive concerns.  This can help reduce and/or soothe stomach acids and gas, aid in a nauseated stomach and help ease the flow of bile to be more productive. Individuals with  IBS have stated they are relieved with the help of powerful peppermint.

It is good for relaxing nerves and improving circulation.  This can also aid the body with inflammation that can hide in the  body.  Inflammation is pesky and the peppermint can sneak up and soothe it.  Awww, my tired sore muscles needed this.  I should also add, that I have partial nerve paralysis in part of my body.  A quick dab of peppermint essential oil mixed into my lotion and creating a salve, can help with the pain that is caused with the malfunctioning nerves.  peppermint oil

It can be an antiseptic and antibacterial that can cool your skin and/or scalp (possibly helping with those pesky dry flakes).

Hence the lining of the bathtub of peppermint products; whether they were created or I created them myself.  I am notorious for creating herbal salves, oils and such.   I would recommend a true organic peppermint essential oil as not all oils are created equal.

Peppermint was a beautiful savior for me the first few weeks of healing and detoxing.  

May you enjoy the benefits of peppermint.

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings, 

Natasha 

Please be advised that this is in no way medical advice; if you need medical advise, please seek from a medical doctor.

Please Be Patient, Under Construction

By Natasha Botkin 

Atlantis Waterfall

I recently saw this post somewhere “Currently under construction, thank you for your patience.” –unknown.  I am unsure as to the where this was posted.  Where it was posted does not matter.  What matters is the effect, maybe I am brave or immensely foolish to share this here, either way, during a truly difficult moment of outside sources plaguing me, I was trying to be the steady ocean; yet, the waves began to pummel again to me.

After hours of this, I reached out to a friend; who texted me don’t have a pity party.  Oh really, hmmm.  First, let’s define pity: the feeling of sorrow and compassion caused by the suffering and misfortunes of others.  So no pity party in fact, what caused me the duress was the images of my BeLoved (my Twin Flame) and all of our beautiful moments together.  Which lead to why doesn’t he wish to speak to me, the divine response was “fear, fear of you; if he has to accept you as you are, he has to accept his truth.  My dear you can be quite a bit for a weakened one, your powers are immense and ever reaching in ways that most cannot even begin to muster. Be patient dear one.” 

Then I hear, “Should we begin to pop the popcorn.” Oh so not, funny right now dear angels, my sense of humor flushed down the toilet and out to a rocky sea.  It takes me a bit to settle; the outside is pouring into me, others egos are crushing; seriously, check yourself before you wish to be all mighty, cause you’d be surprised at how some enlightened individuals behave.  Which brought me back to my human work as a behavioral specialist, and this helped me settle into my higher self, the blonde parts of my hair changing into the crystalline silver essence of Amel shining forward.  Oh Lord, if Amel is here with the angels, I know what is about to come, the elders of the realm, Mary Magdalene’s image and then Jesuah’s image and christ light expansion.  Fully being bathed in christ light, crystal light and the love that cradles me is beautiful beyond compare.

My ego barks, I just went through a re-birth, please not again. .  I have two choices, I surrender to this factor or I rage an ego battle.  Yep, I am in no way going to behave like my BeLoved; they warned him, he choose not to listen and now has the effects.  That’s the part that one should realize; we all have a destiny, we either go or they will give to us “free will,” and then steer us back on course.  Our course can be simple and graceful or it can be awkward and difficult.  Ultimately that is “free choice.”

My human form surrenders to the fact that I am about to undergo massive construction.  Do I know where this will take me.  No, I do not.  It is befitting that this is occurring at the same time as the new moon. In fact a very powerful new moon.  In truth, the divine love and light that surrounds me also helps propel me even further up the spiral.  It is now, that I am more aware that in order to accept this new growth, the old had to strip away to make room for the expansion of heart, holding space in a most auspicious way.  The being old patterns,old beliefs; they do not belong, they needed to go like a hole in a sock.  The toe pokes out and you think I’ll throw that sock away or darn it; darn it in thought and rip that sock off, cause the new one will be soft, simple, graceful.

Be Kind BattleAll I ask, is please be patient with others.  As we are all under construction.  In my last blog, patience was the divine ideal that shined forward.  Again this heralds true.  “Be patient dear ones, the best is yet to come; a soul knows no time.  A soul is timeless; it is human ego that places a time; disallow and breath, go inside, allow.” 

Much Love and Light

Magical Blessings

Natasha

Peaceful Ascension

By Natasha Botkin 

Recently as I drove down the road watching commuters battling out for a space in the line of traffic, I sat back and thought why?  Why does one cram themselves into a line that does not go much further than one car length.  This brought me back to a conversation with my spiritual teacher.  Steer the course, do not ver to the left or right.  A song plays over the speakers, the lyrics of a change, a battle, of peace….

Which brought me back to a moment, a moment of an exchange with a wise woman.  A stranger really to me, all of my life, I have people stop and tell me their life stories.  My children often asking why would a stranger tell me that?  I have just accepted that people come to me to tell their stories.  Sometimes, they need a wise voice of innate wisdom to shine forward without judgement, without conviction, a person to listen, to help them release this.  Satinglass spiral

This lady looked at me and said, “Wow an ascended one, I’ve never met one in person before and you look nothing like I would think an ascended one should look like.”  I remember looking at her and wondering, but not saying anything, as I knew she had a story that she would share; and what a beautiful story it was.  It wasn’t the story; it was what she said, this was years ago; “ascended, ascension; isn’t for  the faint of heart and it will take much energy, love and light dear one, be prepared as it will come and you will easily glide up the spiral.” 

At the time, I was preparing for a major divorce and custody battle.  Little did I know that was much easier than ascension.  My spiritual teacher will gently guide me, and yet the human psyche at first wanted the ego to rage, bark and scream.  Almost like a two-year old not being allowed to have a cookie before dinner.  Yet, this is going to happen, go with grace and it will come with ease.  Some has been filled full of ease, and some would be easier to deal with a two-year old having a tantrum.

Come back to peace, love and light.  In steps the next wise woman, I am walking in the store and ran right into her.  She remarks, “Darlin, get your head out of the clouds.”  I look her, smile and say,“Ha clouds, that too easy, try galactic travel or what dimension did I float off to, traversing the mundane of today’s humanistic mess.”  She smiled and replies, “Ascension is not easy, especially in the modern ways.  You do not look like one, so many may not even realize. It’s not the appearance; it’s the light, the love that matters.” 

I am a special education, so I am a pro at what is called “wait time.”  Well, I am a pro with others, “wait time,”  me well in truth, I am not usually a slow learner, and  yet, may need an accelerated IEP to slow my horses, so to speak. (As my spiritual teacher often says, “Dear the Aries in you.”)   I look at her and wait, she smiles a big grin and says, “Dear one, you are doing much better than you give yourself credit for; however patience is necessary. The biggest patience that you need is your own transformation to ascension. you are almost across that bridge to a major level up, be patient.  Years ago, you were told that you do not look like an ascended one, in truth, you’re a more modern version. Your spiritual mentor has recently given you knowledge of the changes that will come.”  Then she smiles and says, “Be Kind, Rewind,” and instance is gone, I look around the aisle and do not see her.

Slowly, I approach the checkout; barely able to speak to anyone, and yet like moths to the light people dance around me.  I pay for my items and sit in my vehicle.  No thoughts, nothing, just sit and allow the wisdom that was also downloaded settle and absorb into my light.

The latest wise woman, was the same week as recent the crystal light activation January 2015, the full moon and just after the winter solstice.  It has taken me a bit to settle into the next step.  One moment, I am walking in the divine feminine goddess of innate wisdom that heralds the divine wisdom of love and light; and the next I am submerged in a hot bath trying to release the negative energies that seems to want to invade my aura.

And in truth, I do not wear flowy robes, probably never will. I am more of a mover. singer, dancer with the heart of a youth filled full of love and light. Hence the comment “Be Kind, Rewind.” Go back to my heart, my joy, my peaceful grace.  One thing that has come about with the crystal light activation is peace, harmony and joy.  We need much more of it.  If ya feel like dancing, dance; if you feel like singing, sing.  Life is to be lived and enjoyed with a beauty that is deep within us all.

Magical Blessings of love and light!

Natasha

 

Crystal Light Activation

by Natasha  Botkin 

Crystal Light Elder

January 3,2015, there was a crystal light activation that entered Earth’s atmosphere.  Those who can see, hear, feel at first wondered what had happened.  We just celebrated the new year, preparing for the full moon and what is happening.  My ascension and sensitivity went to an extreme.  I felt like I had been literally punched, my face, my jaw, my skull ached; the masculine seeping, weeping as it leaving me.

Here comes the full moon, the intensity settled, yet I could feel something brewing just underneath.  My vibrational manner changed.  I cried at a drop of a hat, worst of all unable to shield my empath ways, taking on and absorbing so many negative energies.  Others around me who are also sensitive were also affected, many of these individuals crying, unsure as to why.   The most difficult moments, how do I explain this unknown, especially when the unknown are children?

I felt my heart space expand and grow even more.  People would say,”Did you know that your crystal is glowing” or they would look away not wanting to admit to what they just witnessed.  My heart had the most tremendously, wonderful energy pulsing through.  The harmonics grew, those who have ascended are growing, opening, preparing for the next wave.  This is just the beginning to a new wave, a new way, more heart, more grace, more love, more light, more peace.  Crystal light heart

If you are one of those who are effected, please seek solace from those who can and will support you.  This is absolutely beautiful, and necessary; yet it can leave one overwhelmed. Enjoy something that brings you joy.

Much love and light to you!

Magical Blessings

Natasha

Grounding “Earthing” Meditation

by Natasha Botkin

When I began blogging, my oldest son suggested that I move a bit more modern into the vlogging social media world.  So, here I am.  I realize that during this journey, I will have to locate a decent video editing program.  The last one was awesome, that is until I uploaded and found their name throughout my video. One step at a time….

We just went through Winter Solstice where Mother Gaia was gently reminding us to slow down.  I hope that you were able to have a few moments to rest and relax during the holidays.

I know that I was able to walk along a favorite location of mine.  Water is an important element for me, and I just adore the seal who greets me or the one lopsided seagull who dive bombs the other water birds. IMAG0360

The angels have strongly reminded me that with Winter Solstice just passing and the new energies of 2015, grounding/earthing is an important element to incorporate within one’s busy schedule.  This is a way to connect with the energies of Mother Gaia, and she loves to share her energies.

This takes only a few moments out of the day.  Happy grounding/earthing!

Much Love and Light

Magical Blessings

Natasha