Stuck in the Muck

By Natasha Botkin

Natasha Publicity Photo 300 bI was going through one heck of a time, feeling confused and a bit lost.  When it seemed that I just might be stuck.  In fact, it seemed as if I was not moving forward nor backward, no matter what direction I attempted.

If you can imagine, Pigpen, from Charlie Brown- the dirt follows him whereever he goes. 

“I have had enough!” echoed from every crevice of my physical form.   

Thus the wisdom surging forward, and my higher self showing me simple techniques that could help move the energy. 

This is the topic for this Podcast Interview with a fellow collaborative author Wisdom of Midlife Women 2 and warrioress, Peggy Nolan.

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Podcast Interview

Please take about 30 mins to listen to Peggy and my conversation.  This is a beautiful moment of wisdom that many can benefit from.  

Sharing is caring!  Please share away. 

Dear Hearts, It’s time to release. The more you release, the more joy you will feel as you freely move.  

 

Here is a link to subscribe to Peggy’s podcast.

 

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings, 

Natasha 

 

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Full Wolf Moon

by Natasha Botkin 

 

 

By the light of the moon Full Wolf Moon

the full moon wolf howls. 

A spectator to some, 

the truth to others. 

Go dear ones and 

bask in the light 

of the full wolf moon. 

 

The January Full Moon is known as the Full Wolf Moon, and in some Native American cultures, it is called the snow moon, to other Native tribes this occurs in February.

 Why is it called this? 

In Native American and early Colonial times, the Full Moon for January was called the Full Wolf Moon. It appeared when wolves howled in hunger outside the villages as the snow piled high.  The cold bareness of the land, created an echo, a call to the land, Mother Gaia, for food.

  Why a wolf? 

In symbolism and the totem,  the wolf is known for a strong connection into higher intuition. If you have ever heard of the idiom “wolf’s instict;” this is true as they have a way of knowing just when to appear.   A wolf is an excellent communicator with other wolves, the spiritual world and Luna (moon). As the wolf appears to you, what does your instict say or react to, what you are trying to say, but are not be hearing. Another moment they are known for is “sinking your teeth into,” but rather, thinking in a scary manner, look at it as what is the wolf trying to show you, communicate to your tru heart.

January Full Moon: 

Let’s look at the energies that have been cycling for us.  This full moon is January 23, 2016 @ 05:46 pm PST.  This is at the end of Mercury Retrograde.  Mercury Retrograde is a time of reflection, it is a time to slow down, unwind and truly see what no longer serves you.  The bareness of the winter land, Merucry and the Full Wolf Moon can help you release that which no longer serves you.

Do not look at this as death, rather look at this as stillness. The stillness that you need to release, so that you may re-birth into a renewal of your heart and soul. A moment to go deep within, and sit with what you heart truly needs, not what the etheric ego desires.  As the wolf comes, sit with thee, request for the energies of the wolf to help you transfer what you need to Luna, so she may let it go.

Howls of the Wolf Removal of Old Baggage: 

  • Light a candle, and gaze into the flame. 
  •  Ask what do I need to release, stop listen and allow the stillness  unfolding to 
  • the beating heart.  
  • The heart whispers, allow this to deepen. Allow your heart to speak its truth. 
  •  Write down what comes, light this over your flame, and let it go releasing-to the wolf, who’s
  • howling, 
  • voicing echos will carry to Luna.  
  • Luna will release this from you. 
  • Take 3 deep breathes in. 
  • Rest.

 

Go Dear Ones, healing your heart by the light of the moon using an eternal flame.  Happy, Howling Full Wolf Moon and Happy Releasing, each and every Dear Heart. May you be peace and love to your heart.

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings, 

Natasha 

 

 

 

 

 

 

What if One Lets Go Like a Fall Leaf

by Natasha Botkin 

The fall is a wonderful reminder and opportunity to just let it go.  Take a brief moment to sit back and watch the leaves of a season that were once alive and thriving.  Then as the weather begins to cool, this leaf begins to altar its state of being.  It is present in the moment.  As the color changes to a vibrant color,  it sits there in all of its own individual glory; there is no competition with the other leaves.  It shines its beauty with the others.  Then, one day it gently pulls away from the branch and slowly and swiftly falls to its new state of being.  It gladly takes on another role in the cycle of life.  fall leaves

What if for a moment we were each like a fall leaf.  We altar our being for the present moment by moment.  There is no need to rush.  All the beauty of the leaves together shining for all to see.  Then some leaves need to depart ahead of others, again it is in its moment.

The tru nature of these words, shine where you are, you will land where you land and even if you must altar (as we all need to) and just allow the present state of being all that you can be in the moment.  Just ponder, yes, you too, will shine and show your tremendous colors of being.

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings,

Natasha 

A New Approach to Mercury Retrograde

by Natasha Botkin 

Poor Mercury what did this dear planet ever do to humans.  Why is this planet getting so much flack.  This planet represents clear thinking, communication, truth and travel.  During a retrograde, it appears that Mercury is spinning backwards.

Some may say that this causes electronics to go haywire.  Some may agree that communication is difficult.

This can be viewed from a negative propensity.  However, one can turn this around and view this as a truly a beautiful sacred gift.  It is a gift.

Mercury is presenting one with a way to honor themselves.  How better to honor one’s self with a gift of truthful communication.  A gift of communicating and traveling to be your true authentic self.  For too long humans have created a vortex of negativity about Mercury, and yet Mercury presents a great gift.  When one truly turns inward and communicates with their heart and soul (higher self), one is truly able to communicate avidly with another.  

Thus Mercury presents ever so often the opportunity to let go of the distractions, go deep inside and release that which no longer should be able to rest within one’s self.  Only then can you be the true you.  

Thank you Mercury for helping us to cycle back and reflect the lessons of our spiral.  By granting us the ability to let go of a the lesson.

May you be able to change the angle of the camera lens and receive this wonderous gift. 

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings

Natasha

The Past of One’s Mistakes Can Herald Through the Times….Release dear one

By Natasha Botkin

Natasha (Princess) and Roy (Knight)Recently, I was discussing with another how my past lives keep showing up.  Sometimes one at a time, sometimes many all at once.  One thing is for sure, the divine has me on overdrive and there are days where keeping up with human experiences are beyond overwhelming.

A week ago, I was underneath not one, but two different sinks to clear blocked drains.  As I am attempting to put the pipes back together a sob commences and the feeling of get ready shines through.  Oh no, water means deep emotions and how deep is this going to go.  It is not like we are ever given a definitive releasing map. It is, just the know that something is going to happen, and the happening will arise as needed.

How deep did this go.  Centuries back, back to when all of the troubles began for me and my twin flame. One thing happened which led my BeLoved to not act like himself and this led me to not act like myself.  I cannot say why I did not confess my sins (not really a sin–rather a massive mistake).  Instead, I have been trying correct this mistake over and over. My loving heart, shamed, how could I have allowed this to happen: I am of love.  It is almost like the movie “Groundhog Day,” except instead of reliving one particular moment.  Mine catapulted into lifetime after lifetime, trying so hard to hide this enormous mistake from my BeLoved, maybe this time, I can correct it, and thus, only to be heralded to untimely death after death.

Now, when I mention how deep–Oh it was deeper than the depths of most oceans.  Funny part about all of this, because I have to allocate the humor to something so large, is that my BeLoved in this lifetime loves to scuba dive.  One thing he taught me was no matter how intense the storm is at or near the surface, if you go down x amount of feet; yep, I have forgotten the exact amount, and yes he is spiritually smiling, as how am I ever going to learn to scuba dive, if I cannot recall the depth meters. The water will be calm X amount of feet down.

So when for the fourth time in a week, 2 clogged pipes, a clogged garbage disposal and a flooded basement. I decided it was time to give my BeLoved’s idea a whirl.  You see, my body reacted to all of this in a way that no longer serves me.  Anger exuded from me, and this left me in pain, not an emotional, a physical pain.  I have moved to my divine feminine and to feel the rage, anger, shame move through me brought out great amounts of physical pain.  My spiritual mentor helped me clear many energies, as this was not fully clearing with me–my BeLoved also physically pained and not behaving like himself…It was too deep, too intense.  So, she cleared the way for me to submerge myself into the deeper waters going down, down, down.

Dreamtime work brought forth my answers, my shame, my guilt; the worst part what will happen when my BeLoved twin flame realizes what I did.  Will he hate me, will he fear me, will he banish our love?  The beauty and surprise were “My silly girl, I have known all along, and have waited to hear the truth from you.  Why did you fear me?”  My response, “Do you wish to hear our truth or do you wish me to lie to you as all the others that fear you?”  My BeLoved, “Truth, and when did you ever fear me?”  My repose,  “One because of your mistake, you behaved in a way that was not like you; thus I made my mistake and I am ashamed of my mistake, I went into hiding, like a lost scared little girl and with each lifetime since have been put to death; deaths that did not belong to me, if I just shared with you–the truth. Now that I have come into my truth-I refuse to hide; my cloak of invisibility gone-I stand and shine my full glory of love and light for all to see!”

I have come to realize that the angst that created my BeLoved and my separation of this lifetime, stems from mistakes of centuries ago.  Spiritually, I have made amends with my BeLoved twin flame; I do not know have the knows of this lifetime and can only pray that his esoteric form can truly forgive me and accept my love, my light, my powerful high priestess self. For to know me is to love me.

Much Love and Light

Magical Blessings, Natasha

Please Be Patient, Under Construction

By Natasha Botkin 

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I recently saw this post somewhere “Currently under construction, thank you for your patience.” –unknown.  I am unsure as to the where this was posted.  Where it was posted does not matter.  What matters is the effect, maybe I am brave or immensely foolish to share this here, either way, during a truly difficult moment of outside sources plaguing me, I was trying to be the steady ocean; yet, the waves began to pummel again to me.

After hours of this, I reached out to a friend; who texted me don’t have a pity party.  Oh really, hmmm.  First, let’s define pity: the feeling of sorrow and compassion caused by the suffering and misfortunes of others.  So no pity party in fact, what caused me the duress was the images of my BeLoved (my Twin Flame) and all of our beautiful moments together.  Which lead to why doesn’t he wish to speak to me, the divine response was “fear, fear of you; if he has to accept you as you are, he has to accept his truth.  My dear you can be quite a bit for a weakened one, your powers are immense and ever reaching in ways that most cannot even begin to muster. Be patient dear one.” 

Then I hear, “Should we begin to pop the popcorn.” Oh so not, funny right now dear angels, my sense of humor flushed down the toilet and out to a rocky sea.  It takes me a bit to settle; the outside is pouring into me, others egos are crushing; seriously, check yourself before you wish to be all mighty, cause you’d be surprised at how some enlightened individuals behave.  Which brought me back to my human work as a behavioral specialist, and this helped me settle into my higher self, the blonde parts of my hair changing into the crystalline silver essence of Amel shining forward.  Oh Lord, if Amel is here with the angels, I know what is about to come, the elders of the realm, Mary Magdalene’s image and then Jesuah’s image and christ light expansion.  Fully being bathed in christ light, crystal light and the love that cradles me is beautiful beyond compare.

My ego barks, I just went through a re-birth, please not again. .  I have two choices, I surrender to this factor or I rage an ego battle.  Yep, I am in no way going to behave like my BeLoved; they warned him, he choose not to listen and now has the effects.  That’s the part that one should realize; we all have a destiny, we either go or they will give to us “free will,” and then steer us back on course.  Our course can be simple and graceful or it can be awkward and difficult.  Ultimately that is “free choice.”

My human form surrenders to the fact that I am about to undergo massive construction.  Do I know where this will take me.  No, I do not.  It is befitting that this is occurring at the same time as the new moon. In fact a very powerful new moon.  In truth, the divine love and light that surrounds me also helps propel me even further up the spiral.  It is now, that I am more aware that in order to accept this new growth, the old had to strip away to make room for the expansion of heart, holding space in a most auspicious way.  The being old patterns,old beliefs; they do not belong, they needed to go like a hole in a sock.  The toe pokes out and you think I’ll throw that sock away or darn it; darn it in thought and rip that sock off, cause the new one will be soft, simple, graceful.

Be Kind BattleAll I ask, is please be patient with others.  As we are all under construction.  In my last blog, patience was the divine ideal that shined forward.  Again this heralds true.  “Be patient dear ones, the best is yet to come; a soul knows no time.  A soul is timeless; it is human ego that places a time; disallow and breath, go inside, allow.” 

Much Love and Light

Magical Blessings

Natasha