Come One, Come All

By Natasha Botkin 

I am hosting the third Sunday of the month Standing in a Circle of Love.

Angel heart

All Dear Hearts are Welcome.

Come join us.  Come join in.

We come together from anywhere and everywhere.  Love is timeless,

so time zones do not matter.

Help us to share our love and circle the planet.

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings, 

Natasha 

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May You Have the Courage to Follow Your Heart

by Natasha Botkin 

Recently I said, “To know Roy is to love him.”  Roy is the esoteric name of this lifetime to my BeLoved-aka Twinflame.  You see, he is a quiet behind the scenes kind of guy.  So, when I mentioned, what if I used your name in my blog, he said, “I’d be fine with that.”  heart faith love hope

Yet, I was not being courageous to do so.  To know Roy is to love him, to know him is also to know that when he’s upset with you, oh dear.  He’s not violent, it’s more like the knowing of a twinflame all the way down to the core of the soul.  Who wants to be icy.

Definitely not me.  Usually, I am a happy, go-lucky kind of gal.  People would look at us, and I would smile and think, “Dare you to say it-ask me why two people who seem so different are together.”  Roy dressed from head to toe in black and me in pale, light colors.  Hey, at least we both have light hair: me sweet blonde, Roy a gorgeous silver both of us with incredible blue eyes that are known to spark and shine in ways that seem inhuman.

We spoke of this and neither of us could come up with how or why we feel in love.  We just did.  Or rather- the ‘Just Be,’ of our love shined through more often than not.

Unfortunately, like many twin flames we had a separation.  Roy the runner and me the surrenderer.  Good news is he did not run far.  I, often smirk on my way to work as I pass by the dismal location he chose only minutes from the house.

We had our beautiful reunion, just as I said we would.  Heaven knows, friends kept trying ot tell me to move on, set me up on dates.  My heart screaming, noooo-you need Roy, Amel needs Tru.

This past full moon sent many out of sorts.  including myself and Roy.  Have I heard from him? No. Do I give up on him? No.  A week ago, a little voice cried, “Amel, please don’t let Natasha give up on me/Roy, omg pleeeasse.” Roy’s higher self calling out, pleading.  It is not the soul, it’s the hurt heart that keeps Roy away.

I am placing a lighted path along with a map for Roy to make it back to his truth, his heart. Back to love, joy, peace and harmony.

Along a walk, this popped into my head.  I can write everything in my head and sit down and pop this out in moments.  What will Roy say when he sees his name all over here.  I am not sure. He could say, “Oh no, she didn’t,” or he could say, “Wow, she finally found her power and courage, that’s the woman I know and love and it’s about  time you showed up.” 

All I know is today, something kicked in and said, “It’s time!  Step up! Show your power and have the courage to love outloud!”  Here I am having the courage to shout to the world how much I love Roy!  What will happen for the two of us, only time will tell and the angels are not spilling the beans.  Begin to love anew.

Much love, light and Magical Blessings,

Natasha

Please Be Patient, Under Construction

By Natasha Botkin 

Atlantis Waterfall

I recently saw this post somewhere “Currently under construction, thank you for your patience.” –unknown.  I am unsure as to the where this was posted.  Where it was posted does not matter.  What matters is the effect, maybe I am brave or immensely foolish to share this here, either way, during a truly difficult moment of outside sources plaguing me, I was trying to be the steady ocean; yet, the waves began to pummel again to me.

After hours of this, I reached out to a friend; who texted me don’t have a pity party.  Oh really, hmmm.  First, let’s define pity: the feeling of sorrow and compassion caused by the suffering and misfortunes of others.  So no pity party in fact, what caused me the duress was the images of my BeLoved (my Twin Flame) and all of our beautiful moments together.  Which lead to why doesn’t he wish to speak to me, the divine response was “fear, fear of you; if he has to accept you as you are, he has to accept his truth.  My dear you can be quite a bit for a weakened one, your powers are immense and ever reaching in ways that most cannot even begin to muster. Be patient dear one.” 

Then I hear, “Should we begin to pop the popcorn.” Oh so not, funny right now dear angels, my sense of humor flushed down the toilet and out to a rocky sea.  It takes me a bit to settle; the outside is pouring into me, others egos are crushing; seriously, check yourself before you wish to be all mighty, cause you’d be surprised at how some enlightened individuals behave.  Which brought me back to my human work as a behavioral specialist, and this helped me settle into my higher self, the blonde parts of my hair changing into the crystalline silver essence of Amel shining forward.  Oh Lord, if Amel is here with the angels, I know what is about to come, the elders of the realm, Mary Magdalene’s image and then Jesuah’s image and christ light expansion.  Fully being bathed in christ light, crystal light and the love that cradles me is beautiful beyond compare.

My ego barks, I just went through a re-birth, please not again. .  I have two choices, I surrender to this factor or I rage an ego battle.  Yep, I am in no way going to behave like my BeLoved; they warned him, he choose not to listen and now has the effects.  That’s the part that one should realize; we all have a destiny, we either go or they will give to us “free will,” and then steer us back on course.  Our course can be simple and graceful or it can be awkward and difficult.  Ultimately that is “free choice.”

My human form surrenders to the fact that I am about to undergo massive construction.  Do I know where this will take me.  No, I do not.  It is befitting that this is occurring at the same time as the new moon. In fact a very powerful new moon.  In truth, the divine love and light that surrounds me also helps propel me even further up the spiral.  It is now, that I am more aware that in order to accept this new growth, the old had to strip away to make room for the expansion of heart, holding space in a most auspicious way.  The being old patterns,old beliefs; they do not belong, they needed to go like a hole in a sock.  The toe pokes out and you think I’ll throw that sock away or darn it; darn it in thought and rip that sock off, cause the new one will be soft, simple, graceful.

Be Kind BattleAll I ask, is please be patient with others.  As we are all under construction.  In my last blog, patience was the divine ideal that shined forward.  Again this heralds true.  “Be patient dear ones, the best is yet to come; a soul knows no time.  A soul is timeless; it is human ego that places a time; disallow and breath, go inside, allow.” 

Much Love and Light

Magical Blessings

Natasha

Peaceful Ascension

By Natasha Botkin 

Recently as I drove down the road watching commuters battling out for a space in the line of traffic, I sat back and thought why?  Why does one cram themselves into a line that does not go much further than one car length.  This brought me back to a conversation with my spiritual teacher.  Steer the course, do not ver to the left or right.  A song plays over the speakers, the lyrics of a change, a battle, of peace….

Which brought me back to a moment, a moment of an exchange with a wise woman.  A stranger really to me, all of my life, I have people stop and tell me their life stories.  My children often asking why would a stranger tell me that?  I have just accepted that people come to me to tell their stories.  Sometimes, they need a wise voice of innate wisdom to shine forward without judgement, without conviction, a person to listen, to help them release this.  Satinglass spiral

This lady looked at me and said, “Wow an ascended one, I’ve never met one in person before and you look nothing like I would think an ascended one should look like.”  I remember looking at her and wondering, but not saying anything, as I knew she had a story that she would share; and what a beautiful story it was.  It wasn’t the story; it was what she said, this was years ago; “ascended, ascension; isn’t for  the faint of heart and it will take much energy, love and light dear one, be prepared as it will come and you will easily glide up the spiral.” 

At the time, I was preparing for a major divorce and custody battle.  Little did I know that was much easier than ascension.  My spiritual teacher will gently guide me, and yet the human psyche at first wanted the ego to rage, bark and scream.  Almost like a two-year old not being allowed to have a cookie before dinner.  Yet, this is going to happen, go with grace and it will come with ease.  Some has been filled full of ease, and some would be easier to deal with a two-year old having a tantrum.

Come back to peace, love and light.  In steps the next wise woman, I am walking in the store and ran right into her.  She remarks, “Darlin, get your head out of the clouds.”  I look her, smile and say,“Ha clouds, that too easy, try galactic travel or what dimension did I float off to, traversing the mundane of today’s humanistic mess.”  She smiled and replies, “Ascension is not easy, especially in the modern ways.  You do not look like one, so many may not even realize. It’s not the appearance; it’s the light, the love that matters.” 

I am a special education, so I am a pro at what is called “wait time.”  Well, I am a pro with others, “wait time,”  me well in truth, I am not usually a slow learner, and  yet, may need an accelerated IEP to slow my horses, so to speak. (As my spiritual teacher often says, “Dear the Aries in you.”)   I look at her and wait, she smiles a big grin and says, “Dear one, you are doing much better than you give yourself credit for; however patience is necessary. The biggest patience that you need is your own transformation to ascension. you are almost across that bridge to a major level up, be patient.  Years ago, you were told that you do not look like an ascended one, in truth, you’re a more modern version. Your spiritual mentor has recently given you knowledge of the changes that will come.”  Then she smiles and says, “Be Kind, Rewind,” and instance is gone, I look around the aisle and do not see her.

Slowly, I approach the checkout; barely able to speak to anyone, and yet like moths to the light people dance around me.  I pay for my items and sit in my vehicle.  No thoughts, nothing, just sit and allow the wisdom that was also downloaded settle and absorb into my light.

The latest wise woman, was the same week as recent the crystal light activation January 2015, the full moon and just after the winter solstice.  It has taken me a bit to settle into the next step.  One moment, I am walking in the divine feminine goddess of innate wisdom that heralds the divine wisdom of love and light; and the next I am submerged in a hot bath trying to release the negative energies that seems to want to invade my aura.

And in truth, I do not wear flowy robes, probably never will. I am more of a mover. singer, dancer with the heart of a youth filled full of love and light. Hence the comment “Be Kind, Rewind.” Go back to my heart, my joy, my peaceful grace.  One thing that has come about with the crystal light activation is peace, harmony and joy.  We need much more of it.  If ya feel like dancing, dance; if you feel like singing, sing.  Life is to be lived and enjoyed with a beauty that is deep within us all.

Magical Blessings of love and light!

Natasha

 

Crystal Light Activation

by Natasha  Botkin 

Crystal Light Elder

January 3,2015, there was a crystal light activation that entered Earth’s atmosphere.  Those who can see, hear, feel at first wondered what had happened.  We just celebrated the new year, preparing for the full moon and what is happening.  My ascension and sensitivity went to an extreme.  I felt like I had been literally punched, my face, my jaw, my skull ached; the masculine seeping, weeping as it leaving me.

Here comes the full moon, the intensity settled, yet I could feel something brewing just underneath.  My vibrational manner changed.  I cried at a drop of a hat, worst of all unable to shield my empath ways, taking on and absorbing so many negative energies.  Others around me who are also sensitive were also affected, many of these individuals crying, unsure as to why.   The most difficult moments, how do I explain this unknown, especially when the unknown are children?

I felt my heart space expand and grow even more.  People would say,”Did you know that your crystal is glowing” or they would look away not wanting to admit to what they just witnessed.  My heart had the most tremendously, wonderful energy pulsing through.  The harmonics grew, those who have ascended are growing, opening, preparing for the next wave.  This is just the beginning to a new wave, a new way, more heart, more grace, more love, more light, more peace.  Crystal light heart

If you are one of those who are effected, please seek solace from those who can and will support you.  This is absolutely beautiful, and necessary; yet it can leave one overwhelmed. Enjoy something that brings you joy.

Much love and light to you!

Magical Blessings

Natasha

‘Just Be’ Present

Just Be Present Meditation

By Natasha Botkin

The ‘Just Be’ Present Meditation arrived from my higher self, Amel.  The story has romantic moments and moments of sadness,  A week ago was pure bliss.  My twin flame appeared in my life, and we spent the most wonderous ‘Just Be’ moments enjoying the love that we hold for one another.  We parted and a few days passed.

My BeLoved texted me Marry Christmas, and I smiled with his fun-loving self.  Yet, as the day progressed, the effects of cloud nine settled; I found myself longing to return to his embrace. My ego relentless with why can’t I see him, I need to see him and wondering why his ego keeps him away.  When my dear higher self Amel, reminded me, ‘Just Be’ in the moment.

Moments later the ‘Just Be’ Present Meditation surfaced from my heart and soul.

May you to enjoy this meditation and ‘Just Be’ Present and in the moment.  Butterfly Lavender

Much love and light to you!

Magical Blessings

Natasha

 

Winter Solstice Interlude

By Natasha Botkin     Mother Gaia Tree Earth

 

Normally, I am on overdrive, a fast paced personality. Others asking me to rest or take a moment to slow down.  Now, from my typical pace, I have slowed down, and yet I know that others would disagree.  I hear the call of the birds, nature, mother Gaia.

Winter Solstice is approaching and mother Gaia is slowing her pace, by beginning the earth’s turning at a slower rate.  I feel the rev of my internal engine begin to slow its pace.  Ordinarily, I would take a day, a brief moment of rest or as my BeLoved would say zonk out from being on overdrive for too long.

I recall a conversation that we once had, we were newly in love, and on our way home from a magical weekend.  I was nervous with the standstill traffic, would we make it in time to pick up my youngest son, and my BeLoved would be meeting my youngest son for the first time that evening.  Am I ready for this, my mind drifted, when I hear, “I have ADHD.”  I return, snap to the sound of his voice almost spitting out the beverage in my mouth and respond, “Are you kidding me, you are more mellow than I am.”  He smiled one of his, as I would begin to learn, patient smiles and the wisdom that would ensue shined forth, ever gentle, ever patient, teaching me to slow down.

He shares with me his ways of slowing down.  I look at him and say, “I meditate, I practice yoga.”  Again that gentle smile of wisdom as the conversation continues.  With our seperation, I have once again picked up a quick pace. 010

Snap, we are back to this moment in time. The dishwasher konked out and the flat line is not a thrilling moment to one with a busy life.  Yep, God takes drastic measures to grab my attention. The angels smile, she is our “soap opera, let’s pop some popcorn.”

Now I am smiling as I recall that moment in time with my BeLoved. The boys are washing and drying the dishes while I am making salmon chowder.  Something inside is listening, slow down, breath.  The mother in me says slowly breath.  Time to prepare for the winter.

My body is slowing its pace, breathing and feeling mother Gaia guide me.  I lay down to rest, relax. Yes I can go into deep meditation, almost comatose; however my true nature is the engine that revs along at a high rate of speed and then crashes.  I hear the ravens, the seagulls, the blue jays. I can feel mother Gaia guide me to a deep meditation.  Slow down, rest, relax. Prepare for the winter, prepare your body to freely play at a slower pace.  You need this.  Rest, write about it, others need to rest and slow their pace.  I am become one with mother Gaia’s guidance, slowing my pace and enjoying this wonderful wisdom that had been brought forth.  Mother Gaia resting

May you also slow your pace and rest.  Ask mother Gaia to guide you; she will gladly guide you.

Much Love and Light.

Magical Blessings

Natasha