Stuck in the Muck

By Natasha Botkin

Natasha Publicity Photo 300 bI was going through one heck of a time, feeling confused and a bit lost.  When it seemed that I just might be stuck.  In fact, it seemed as if I was not moving forward nor backward, no matter what direction I attempted.

If you can imagine, Pigpen, from Charlie Brown- the dirt follows him whereever he goes. 

“I have had enough!” echoed from every crevice of my physical form.   

Thus the wisdom surging forward, and my higher self showing me simple techniques that could help move the energy. 

This is the topic for this Podcast Interview with a fellow collaborative author Wisdom of Midlife Women 2 and warrioress, Peggy Nolan.

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Podcast Interview

Please take about 30 mins to listen to Peggy and my conversation.  This is a beautiful moment of wisdom that many can benefit from.  

Sharing is caring!  Please share away. 

Dear Hearts, It’s time to release. The more you release, the more joy you will feel as you freely move.  

 

Here is a link to subscribe to Peggy’s podcast.

 

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings, 

Natasha 

 

The Voice of Authenticity

By Natasha Botkin 

Have you heard the whispers in the air, the lull of the moon, the dance of the waves…

One thing is for sure, 2016 will not allow you to hide, procrastinate and ignore.  The energy vibes are calling, whispering, saying your truth and the more that you try to ignore or hide, the stronger the vibes may become.  

It is like 2016 is standing up and saying enough, enough with your shenanghans.  I am here in the now; now follow me.  

The old adage of fake it until you make it, no longer rings true.  The toll of the bell, rings of love, of truth, of light.  

Now, this is not to say, that there will be those, who insist on “their way” with the idea of “free will.”  I am here to gently emphasize that this is a 9 year in numerology, and the karmic energies are here to remind you; good or bad, but karma would like your attention and this will not sulk away, as it would in the past.  

Here are a few ways to show up in an authentic manner, which can calm the storm of the lesson if you allow. 

Ask yourself are you authentically expressing:

  1. A feeling 
  2. An emotion (allowing yourself to feel this emotion)   Do not ignore it, this will tighten its grip- Breathe in and out as the emotion happens.
  3. A thought
  4. Is this a feeling, emotion or thought? 
  5. Where did the feeling, emotion or thought originate from? Pay careful attention to the signs that your emotional body is sending to your etheric body (i.e.  is your chest tight- then breath into your heart center and allow the emotion to flow in and out of you-almost like an ocean wave). 
  6. Is this actually a belief?  What is the illusion that you are trying to convince yourself as your truth?

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The old adage of fake it til your make it, is an old adage, pattern and belief; the awakened conscious is no longer tolerant of these shenanghans.  And like an alligator these are bubbling up to the surface.  

                                                          

 “Toil, toil, toil and trouble….” bubble, bubble bubble.

Place those woes in a pink bubble.  Take a deep breath, breath the woe into the pink bubble and gentle blow this away.  As the pink bubble leaves you, you may ask an angel to take it from you and/or request for them to help you pop it.    pink bubble

Awwww, this feels so much lighter, so much better.

May you feel light and love.

 

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings, 

Natasha 

 

 

 

December 20, 2015-January 31, 2016 Opportunities

by Natasha Botkin 

 

 

We have many amazing gifts that are being bestowed upon us. 

What…just how is mercury retrograde a gift?   Awww dear hearts, it is truly a reflective gift.  There is a reason why it creates tension with electronics and communication with others.  This is a time to turn deeply inward and reflect the dark stillness of what your heart and soul whisper to you.

Luna, kicks this off with the full moon December 25, 2015 at the same time that mercury goes retrograde.  Often times, people are overly willing to release, release and release.  So much so, that you end up releasing too much, and yes that lesson will return with more power.

Hence why we have a spiral and not a tru path.  Please take this beautiful gift and enjoy.

Mother Mary

Mother Mary (who is no demoniational) is showing up with her love.  Ask her to cradle you in her Motherly Love.  The warrior angels are with Mother Mary, and they will help you to release what you request from them.

I cannot, stress enough to please take caution and to not be a in hurry; take mercury’s gift and honor yourself to gently reflect what that truly needs released. 

 

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings, 

Natasha 

What if One Lets Go Like a Fall Leaf

by Natasha Botkin 

The fall is a wonderful reminder and opportunity to just let it go.  Take a brief moment to sit back and watch the leaves of a season that were once alive and thriving.  Then as the weather begins to cool, this leaf begins to altar its state of being.  It is present in the moment.  As the color changes to a vibrant color,  it sits there in all of its own individual glory; there is no competition with the other leaves.  It shines its beauty with the others.  Then, one day it gently pulls away from the branch and slowly and swiftly falls to its new state of being.  It gladly takes on another role in the cycle of life.  fall leaves

What if for a moment we were each like a fall leaf.  We altar our being for the present moment by moment.  There is no need to rush.  All the beauty of the leaves together shining for all to see.  Then some leaves need to depart ahead of others, again it is in its moment.

The tru nature of these words, shine where you are, you will land where you land and even if you must altar (as we all need to) and just allow the present state of being all that you can be in the moment.  Just ponder, yes, you too, will shine and show your tremendous colors of being.

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings,

Natasha 

A New Approach to Mercury Retrograde

by Natasha Botkin 

Poor Mercury what did this dear planet ever do to humans.  Why is this planet getting so much flack.  This planet represents clear thinking, communication, truth and travel.  During a retrograde, it appears that Mercury is spinning backwards.

Some may say that this causes electronics to go haywire.  Some may agree that communication is difficult.

This can be viewed from a negative propensity.  However, one can turn this around and view this as a truly a beautiful sacred gift.  It is a gift.

Mercury is presenting one with a way to honor themselves.  How better to honor one’s self with a gift of truthful communication.  A gift of communicating and traveling to be your true authentic self.  For too long humans have created a vortex of negativity about Mercury, and yet Mercury presents a great gift.  When one truly turns inward and communicates with their heart and soul (higher self), one is truly able to communicate avidly with another.  

Thus Mercury presents ever so often the opportunity to let go of the distractions, go deep inside and release that which no longer should be able to rest within one’s self.  Only then can you be the true you.  

Thank you Mercury for helping us to cycle back and reflect the lessons of our spiral.  By granting us the ability to let go of a the lesson.

May you be able to change the angle of the camera lens and receive this wonderous gift. 

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings

Natasha

Receiving Does Not Make One Weak

Receiving Does Not Make One Weak

By Natasha Botkin

If we look at the genus name  or the eucalyptus flower, it is derived from the Greek eu, meaning “well”, and kalyptos, eucalyptus flowermeaning “cover.” This name refers to the well-covered flower buds – a very fruitful tree.  If we look to ancient symbolism this is a tree of wealthy abundance and foretelling.  If we look to an angelic meaning this about removing the barriers to allow your angels to assist you in receiving your miracles.

Almost a year ago, I was given the idea of “if you build it they will come.” Now, I have to admit, I took this a bit too literal and thought love the movie Field of Dreams and enjoy baseball; but have no desire to build a baseball field in the middle of a farm.  My angels find me quite humorous and shake their heads, no, no that is not what we mean.

Eventually, I did understand their meaning and this began an enormous journey.  Much of which is still progressing, much like a work in progress. I, so wish I could say that transformational mystery school of Atlantis was up and running. You see, I have had to learn to adjust to receiving.

One thing that I have a bad habit of, is being the naysayer and sage that people seek out; yet, do they truly help, assist me.  No, in truth they greedily grab the love and light, and my dear sweet soul is like, we are done with that.  You need to receive , there is no way you can continue on, alone on this journey.  I remind Amel, what about Tru.  She smiles, “Aw our BeLoved, what about him?”  My response, “he is supposed to join me in his esoteric form, and yet my BeLoved Twin Flame plays with the demonic ego allowing his ego to be fed of the lies; how will he ever join me, if he continues to allow the lies to hurt him, hurt me, hurt we.  One moment, we are in sync and all is well and the next, he is off lost in translation fueling himself with fear. ” Amel reminds me, “Patience dear one.” Add in a million sighs, yes I do have my own downward moments and that is one that makes me sigh a deep heavy, are you kidding me kind of sigh.

Sorry, I was off on a tangent.  Anyways, receiving is not easy for me.  I used to think due to old pattern and beliefs that it was a sign of weakness; “a strong person can do it all.” If I look to my maternal grandmother, she did it all, my maternal grandfather quite immature and held down a job, but that was about it.  Pretty much the same for the paternal grandparents as well.  So I learned to take care of me, by being independent.

One of my dear crystal children students recently told to me, “Ms. Botkin, you cannot do it all. You are tired by just trying to be you. Do people know how tough it is to do the things we cannot speak.  These stupid humans do not see, nor will they.”  Out of the mouth of babes!  Well said my dear one!

In truth, it was lies that my ego fed me.  I cannot do it all.  I am weary, I need help.  In steps that symbolic reminder from my angels of the sweet eucalyptus flower.  One this is about wealthy abundance and allowing me to receive.  This is a work in progress, one moment I receive a beautiful pillow from a friend and the next I am, oh dear.  As a child, I was the “do over” queen.  So I have to press the “do over” button and begin anew.

The eucalyptus flower calling out to me, reminding me. I am sitting back and allowing my angels to work their miracles with me, guide me by allowing the ability to receive.  As Archangel Michael has stated, “You are much stronger when you teach, step back and allow you students to do this on their own; however, dear, you also need to be the student of allowing and receiving. Miracles abound dear one.” 

May you also allow the ability to receive.  Much Love and Light!

Magical Blessings, Natasha

The Past of One’s Mistakes Can Herald Through the Times….Release dear one

By Natasha Botkin

Natasha (Princess) and Roy (Knight)Recently, I was discussing with another how my past lives keep showing up.  Sometimes one at a time, sometimes many all at once.  One thing is for sure, the divine has me on overdrive and there are days where keeping up with human experiences are beyond overwhelming.

A week ago, I was underneath not one, but two different sinks to clear blocked drains.  As I am attempting to put the pipes back together a sob commences and the feeling of get ready shines through.  Oh no, water means deep emotions and how deep is this going to go.  It is not like we are ever given a definitive releasing map. It is, just the know that something is going to happen, and the happening will arise as needed.

How deep did this go.  Centuries back, back to when all of the troubles began for me and my twin flame. One thing happened which led my BeLoved to not act like himself and this led me to not act like myself.  I cannot say why I did not confess my sins (not really a sin–rather a massive mistake).  Instead, I have been trying correct this mistake over and over. My loving heart, shamed, how could I have allowed this to happen: I am of love.  It is almost like the movie “Groundhog Day,” except instead of reliving one particular moment.  Mine catapulted into lifetime after lifetime, trying so hard to hide this enormous mistake from my BeLoved, maybe this time, I can correct it, and thus, only to be heralded to untimely death after death.

Now, when I mention how deep–Oh it was deeper than the depths of most oceans.  Funny part about all of this, because I have to allocate the humor to something so large, is that my BeLoved in this lifetime loves to scuba dive.  One thing he taught me was no matter how intense the storm is at or near the surface, if you go down x amount of feet; yep, I have forgotten the exact amount, and yes he is spiritually smiling, as how am I ever going to learn to scuba dive, if I cannot recall the depth meters. The water will be calm X amount of feet down.

So when for the fourth time in a week, 2 clogged pipes, a clogged garbage disposal and a flooded basement. I decided it was time to give my BeLoved’s idea a whirl.  You see, my body reacted to all of this in a way that no longer serves me.  Anger exuded from me, and this left me in pain, not an emotional, a physical pain.  I have moved to my divine feminine and to feel the rage, anger, shame move through me brought out great amounts of physical pain.  My spiritual mentor helped me clear many energies, as this was not fully clearing with me–my BeLoved also physically pained and not behaving like himself…It was too deep, too intense.  So, she cleared the way for me to submerge myself into the deeper waters going down, down, down.

Dreamtime work brought forth my answers, my shame, my guilt; the worst part what will happen when my BeLoved twin flame realizes what I did.  Will he hate me, will he fear me, will he banish our love?  The beauty and surprise were “My silly girl, I have known all along, and have waited to hear the truth from you.  Why did you fear me?”  My response, “Do you wish to hear our truth or do you wish me to lie to you as all the others that fear you?”  My BeLoved, “Truth, and when did you ever fear me?”  My repose,  “One because of your mistake, you behaved in a way that was not like you; thus I made my mistake and I am ashamed of my mistake, I went into hiding, like a lost scared little girl and with each lifetime since have been put to death; deaths that did not belong to me, if I just shared with you–the truth. Now that I have come into my truth-I refuse to hide; my cloak of invisibility gone-I stand and shine my full glory of love and light for all to see!”

I have come to realize that the angst that created my BeLoved and my separation of this lifetime, stems from mistakes of centuries ago.  Spiritually, I have made amends with my BeLoved twin flame; I do not know have the knows of this lifetime and can only pray that his esoteric form can truly forgive me and accept my love, my light, my powerful high priestess self. For to know me is to love me.

Much Love and Light

Magical Blessings, Natasha