Nobodys’ Thinking About You

By Natasha Botkin 

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A-ha, hopefully the title caught your eye.  No, this is not a put down about you or how much you are unloved.  Rather this is a moment of “nobody was ever thinking about you, anyhow.” – Elizabeth Gilbert quote of an unknown individual.  

Where did this stem from? The other day while I am walking along, my higher self and I are internally conversing, when I hear, “Goodness, just how old are you?” A lady had chosen in this moment, to decipher my wardrobe, but that is hindsight to her next comment, “I love when a woman has balls!”  

My response was, “Okay, you have my attention, what gives?” Upon which she repsonds, You are fearless to walk along here dressed in this manner-everyone else is dressed in workout gear.” I look at my clothing, I have on a simple red dress, gray tights, black knee high boots and my favorite brown cloak; in fact I look down right cute.  Or maybe that is what she was referring, too.  We continue to converse about how so many people are afraid to just be themselves; they worry so much about what others may say or do.  So, I ask, “Why did you ask my age?”  She responds with, “Darling, you have an air of an old soul, and yet I feel a heart of a child, you must really confuse people.”  I chuckle, “You have no idea!” 

We parted from our conversation, and my higher self chimes in, “See sweet girl, you know what you must do- now go forth with the fearlessness that you hold within.” 

I leave you with, be you: Dance as if no one is watching, jump in those puddles, have fun; because in truth “nobody was thinking about you.” 

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings, 

Natasha 

 

Happy May-Day!

by Natasha Botkin

May Day Flowers 2015

May-day has always been a special kind of day for me.  I absolutely adore nature, and flowers are a special gift for us all to enjoy.  As a child, you could find me just before May Day in the park or at home, creating May Day Flowers.

Now how I went about it was also quite whimsical.  One never knew if they would receive a yellow dandelion or a dandelion puff to make a magical wish.

Then I would take these special smiles from the fairies, and run up to someone’s door, place it at the door, ring the doorbell and giggle while running away.  I always thought that I was so sneakily clever, only to discover from a neighbor that she loved my special gifts over the years..  As she put it, “dear you were giggling away with such delight, no one had the heart to tell you; you did bring so much joy to those who always needed it; it’s like you knew who needed it the most.”  Awww, my eyes were filled with wonderful tears, and here to think I thought that I was so spry; oh well it is the thought that counts.

May you receive a special gift of love this May Day, whether it is a real flower bouquet, paper flowers or a dear drawing from a special little loved one.

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings,

Natasha