Nobodys’ Thinking About You

By Natasha Botkin 

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A-ha, hopefully the title caught your eye.  No, this is not a put down about you or how much you are unloved.  Rather this is a moment of “nobody was ever thinking about you, anyhow.” – Elizabeth Gilbert quote of an unknown individual.  

Where did this stem from? The other day while I am walking along, my higher self and I are internally conversing, when I hear, “Goodness, just how old are you?” A lady had chosen in this moment, to decipher my wardrobe, but that is hindsight to her next comment, “I love when a woman has balls!”  

My response was, “Okay, you have my attention, what gives?” Upon which she repsonds, You are fearless to walk along here dressed in this manner-everyone else is dressed in workout gear.” I look at my clothing, I have on a simple red dress, gray tights, black knee high boots and my favorite brown cloak; in fact I look down right cute.  Or maybe that is what she was referring, too.  We continue to converse about how so many people are afraid to just be themselves; they worry so much about what others may say or do.  So, I ask, “Why did you ask my age?”  She responds with, “Darling, you have an air of an old soul, and yet I feel a heart of a child, you must really confuse people.”  I chuckle, “You have no idea!” 

We parted from our conversation, and my higher self chimes in, “See sweet girl, you know what you must do- now go forth with the fearlessness that you hold within.” 

I leave you with, be you: Dance as if no one is watching, jump in those puddles, have fun; because in truth “nobody was thinking about you.” 

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings, 

Natasha 

 

Someone Called Me Brave

by Natasha Botkin

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The other day someone called me brave, and this stopped me in my thoughts.  Me brave, how? 

As my sister put it, “You are standing up for you.” You see I’ve been bullied and harassed, and this is not acceptable for anyone to encroach on another.

After my sister said this, Archangel Michael presents it another way. “Sweet girl, you have the heart of a child, but the bravery of a lion and do not get started on that mama grizzly bear.”  I smirk, because it is true.  In my life, I have had to face many obstacles.  Cancer that the doctors said I shouldn’t have survived, domestic violence and being the mother of two very dear crystal children (aka Autism), there is more much more.  God gives his bravest, most incredible individuals the toughest storms to weather.  God, can you please let me have some sun.  Shessh, I’ve weathered a few too many storms and this ship wants to come home: a life of grace, love, peace, joy and harmony.

I have not quite figured out if this blog is personal or for business.  You see, I have both.  Then, it dawned on me; yep it is always darkest before the dawn. That out of the darkness greatness will amass.  If I share my story, then hopefully another will have the courage to face an obstacle and free themselves.  It does not matter the obstacle, an obstacle is an obstacle.

I will live to spring forth a beautiful new life as I take this giant leap of faith.  I can see my angels, they have not left me a net; this time they have chosen to help me fly. my angels have given me wings to fly. I fly high to my mountain, hover and await the next steps to begin anew.

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings,

Natasha