The Voice of Authenticity

By Natasha Botkin 

Have you heard the whispers in the air, the lull of the moon, the dance of the waves…

One thing is for sure, 2016 will not allow you to hide, procrastinate and ignore.  The energy vibes are calling, whispering, saying your truth and the more that you try to ignore or hide, the stronger the vibes may become.  

It is like 2016 is standing up and saying enough, enough with your shenanghans.  I am here in the now; now follow me.  

The old adage of fake it until you make it, no longer rings true.  The toll of the bell, rings of love, of truth, of light.  

Now, this is not to say, that there will be those, who insist on “their way” with the idea of “free will.”  I am here to gently emphasize that this is a 9 year in numerology, and the karmic energies are here to remind you; good or bad, but karma would like your attention and this will not sulk away, as it would in the past.  

Here are a few ways to show up in an authentic manner, which can calm the storm of the lesson if you allow. 

Ask yourself are you authentically expressing:

  1. A feeling 
  2. An emotion (allowing yourself to feel this emotion)   Do not ignore it, this will tighten its grip- Breathe in and out as the emotion happens.
  3. A thought
  4. Is this a feeling, emotion or thought? 
  5. Where did the feeling, emotion or thought originate from? Pay careful attention to the signs that your emotional body is sending to your etheric body (i.e.  is your chest tight- then breath into your heart center and allow the emotion to flow in and out of you-almost like an ocean wave). 
  6. Is this actually a belief?  What is the illusion that you are trying to convince yourself as your truth?

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The old adage of fake it til your make it, is an old adage, pattern and belief; the awakened conscious is no longer tolerant of these shenanghans.  And like an alligator these are bubbling up to the surface.  

                                                          

 “Toil, toil, toil and trouble….” bubble, bubble bubble.

Place those woes in a pink bubble.  Take a deep breath, breath the woe into the pink bubble and gentle blow this away.  As the pink bubble leaves you, you may ask an angel to take it from you and/or request for them to help you pop it.    pink bubble

Awwww, this feels so much lighter, so much better.

May you feel light and love.

 

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings, 

Natasha 

 

 

 

Gentle Approach

by Natasha Botkin 

With all of the energies that are happening, please be gentle with yourself.  

The angels and/or Archangels love when one requests assistance to help.  We also have the lunar energies of a full moon and luna would enjoy releasing  that which no longer serves you.  You, see Mercury Retrograde is really bringing up what no longer serves you and releasing is a must.  One may agree and move through in a gentle manner or resist with tension, pain, emotional outbursts and so forth.

Viewing the video gives you some ideas of ways to help you out.

  1.  Please note that angels love to help, but cannot unless you ask for this.
  2. Mercury Retrograde is creating a way for one to look back and reflect on energies, memories that no longer serve one and this must be released. A wonderful way is the lunar energies of a Super Full Moon as it can supercharge this release.
  3. There is also a lunar eclipse at the same time.  WOW!
  4. How beautiful as the Aries energies move in.   A new beginning after releasing the old.  YEAH!!
  5. Be sure to Play!  Playing is a wonderful way of releasing that which no longer serves one.  Even though everyone’s play looks different, enjoy your playing time.

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings, 

Natasha 

I’m Worth it! Your Worth It!

by Natasha Botkin 

Cat looking in mirror sees lion

Self-esteem can be defined by Webster’s dictionary as a noun self–es·teem \-ə-ˈstēm\ : a feeling of having respect for yourself and your abilities.

Self worth can be defined by Webster’s dictionary as noun \-ˈwərth\: a feeling that you are a good person who deserves to be treated with respect.

Some may say they are the same; some may same they differ from one another.  Instead of focusing on this, let’s focus on a key word; both of the definitions begin with the word feeling.

Let’s define feeling via Webster’s dictionary as noun feel·ing \ˈfē-liŋ\: an awareness by your body of something in it or on it: an emotional state or reaction.

Therefore, a feeling is an awareness by your body, a sense, a presence, a vibe.

I have known individuals who have loads of outward self-esteem, but deep down inside are screaming for self-worth. This is the body receiving divine knowledge that something is amiss.  Emotionailty is that force of a prideful ego dispersing lies.  Sorry, Charlie the Sunkist Tuna, ego lies, deceives and creates a falsehood that is not of divine truth.  

Breaking the belief and pattern that unfolds is as deep as the depth of where a tuna lives.  One needs to dive deep to unfold their truth.  The feelings that one just does not wish to feel.

In my collaboration with 30 other Authors “The Wisdom of Midlife Women 2,”  I share my story, “Feelings of Resilience.”  In fact what I am now bravely sharing is that this story was almost left tabled and not birthed.  When it showed, my ego wanted to scream and kick like a two-year old having a tantrum.  I had to step back and dive deep; when I emerged, my story was powerful, ready to be shared and shown to the those would enjoy this sharing.  WOMW2_CoverIMG 2

Easier said than done, right!  

I understand in ways that most may not realize.  Once upon a time, I wore a cloak of invisibility afraid to show the world my true abilities.  As a child I was ridiculed by friends and family.  Now, I value my divine gifts; this is their loss. and I am here to shine my love, light and strength.  Our powerful divine did not mistake my worth as others did.

The divine bequeathed me with an enormous amount of gifts.  One is being an Empath.  Before I dove deep for the story “Feelings of Resilience, I had this false sense that as an empath, I would take what others could not handle those energies/feelings left me tired and worn out.  I did not deserve this, this is not what this gift is about.  So, diving that I believed to be deep, gently guided this was not deep enough, oh jeeze; my Beloved’s voice and scuba diving knowledge of the human world, right by my side; “I am here ‘My Love.’  It’s okay, you’ll be okay.  There’s a storm brewing, you know what you must do, and even though I cannot be there with you, I am still here and will monitor from afar; you are not alone, you are never alone.”

So dive, I went, it is what I must do!  I dive, further and further and I rest swimming amongst creatures of the unknown.  I am ready to submerge, I know that spiritually my BeLoved will be there with the divine, angels, Mother Mary and Yesuah.  When I submerged they cradled me and helped me to better understand what just happened on the conscious level.

The story emerges, so does my worth in a way that is incredible, words cannot describe what is happening; it is a feeling, me taking back my life, my song, my dance. The greatest moment of clarity was visiting Ikea with a friend; she turns after we leave and says, what is different.  I smile as I know what happened.  One day I will share.

The greatest gift that the divine gave to me at that moment was the return of feeling.  Self worth tackling what once toppled me; now I walk amongst crowds and do not absorb their energies.  Rather, I honor and treasure myself to shine my divine light and divine love at full strength so that others may also feel this beautiful gift.  The other divine gift, the ability to do so without absorbing their “stuff.”  Me standing like a beacon of love and light shining for all to see and loving my worth to know that all is well- my power turned on, and I no longer need to “absorb” every little energy; these need a special location and I can deflect this to where it belongs; it does not belong to me as I am worth so much more and cherish myself by honoring my divine worth.  

May you too, honor and cherish all that you are! May you too, turn on your power! 

Much Love, Much Light, and Magical Blessings, 

Natasha 

Kindness Matters

by Natasha Botkin 

Glowing cloud heart

It all started as a beautifully sunny trip to the Farmer’s Market.  A gentleman rushing to me, “You are so beautiful, gorgeous in fact, I just had to tell you.”  I reply with a genuinely kind, “Thank you very much.” 

What happened next was gross, and I just do not understand the whys.  The light rail driver says, “You’re impressed by the homeless man, you must be desperate.”  

I am a kind person, who yields a kind heart.  This was not okay!  I respond with a polite, “That beautiful angel just made my day. I am gratefully blessed.” 

So in lieu of the beautiful angel, who knew my heart needed a pick me up.  I thank you!  

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings,

Natasha

Cancel, Clear , Delete

By Natasha  Botkin 

goddess heart

It all began with an email, I looked at it and went what, is this a joke?  A dear soul I adore wrote me something that made no sense.  I stepped back and asked for the divine feminine wisdom deep within me to herald forward.

Did the answer show right away? No, in fact,  another bizarre email appeared, same sender. Archangel Michael, please help, what is this?  Why am I being given these details?  Then another email from another that held bits and pieces of truth…

Again, I felt lost.  Why is this happening?  I have so much to contend with as of late, please no more.

My heart holds incredible wisdom.  I turned to my inner goddess, show me, give me signs, symbols, help me.  One by one the signs showed, the symbols arrived.  My heart opening up fun bits and pieces.

Then an article breezed my way and the words “magical new beginnings” appeared.  My heart, she began to sing and hum; I chimed into my intuition.  I stopped and listened to the gentle rain and birds singing so sweetly.  Read with care dear one, answers lie within.  I began to read this article and each word, sentence, began to answer what my heart knew; listen to my heart.

I sat there happy, internally dancing.  Victory! Score! One for Natasha’s Heart!  The motion was put forth, go with the flow; a heart full of truth and great love. Me singing to Luna, oh thank you, thank you, thank you!!  Perfect timing with the full moon!!  

What happened next was pure sweetness!  A tarot card that read Cancel, Clear, Delete. Archangel Michael saying, “Only use positive thoughts.”  I knew, what this meant, the past month has been intense!  I recently had lupines dance my way to remind me of “positive thoughts,” and now all of this love from the angels, fairies, goddess’, luna, mother gaia, solia, Mother Mary and Mary Magdalene.  I am so graciously and magically blessed!!

My heart knows its truth and those who wish to sidetrack me, so not happening!  My heart wins a victory!!  I say to myself, “That a girl!  You KNOW your stuff!” Magical Blessings Business card logo

Much Love, Much Light and Magically Blessings, 

Natasha 

http://magicalblessingshealingcenter.com

Internally Smacking My Head

by Natasha Botkin 

Can I just say UGH!!

I was at the Farmer’s Market.  One stand has a dear lady who loves her flowers; her clipping and arranging her flowers and her husband grumbling; her love, but he is there as one day, well he was informed he will stay.  I sat back and waited until the couple was ready…

Today, she asks what would you like; I say what do you believe me to need.  I see her reach for the lupines, and internally smacked my head.  Lupines, they are a beautiful, misunderstood flower.  They love to dance and heal with happiness and bring forth inner strength. The internal headsmack was the other part many do not know….these also bring the message of new opportunities to soon be discovered when one finds the way to have a positive outlook.  Lupine

Thank you so much angels and fairies! Positive outlook, well let’s see in the past month this has been my life….or rather crumble. 

Let’s see in a month’s time a family emergency with my autistic son deciding that looming graduation was too intense and made a rash decision that left us in crisis mode. Me battling to obtain what my son needs.  Stop telling me that I am the expert, I need help—he needs help!

Due to this I went on Family Medical Leave, the next day told that my teaching contract would not be renewed (one month prior when I looked into the harassing details that I was harboring on a daily basis-was told I would have a job–no matter what). So much for the no matter what!  I would have filed harassing paperwork, if I was not up to my eyeballs with crisis therapists, mental health therapist, etc.  The unexpected loss of my job, left me with little financially.  To top it all off, my BeLoved TwinFlame went MIA.  Seriously, he has his own stressors, but this is absurd.

A nagging feeling of trying to get my business up and going to support me.  Well, that has been frustrating! Then to really add mischief to all of this, the old lady home, really needs a new caretaker.  In my area, housing is beyond ridiculous, and I am finding traversing the world of help, is there is no help and have been labeled the working poor.

So when the lupine danced my way, I knew it was the divine’s way of saying enough.  Get off the pity party wagon that you are harboring off and on and dance sweet girl.  Have faith, trust and believe that I am doing what you need.

Remarkably, I am peacefully joyful with the latest level up.

Oh dear lupine, thank you for coming my way. I’ve placed you near the bed in hopes that sweet dreams may enter my sleeping realm, peace and comfort will return.  Be the watcher—-wait and see sweet girl, allow love to flow–you’ll be OK. 

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings,

Natasha

They Overrode the Buttons

by Natasha Botkin 

Angel with heart rose

During last night’s dream time, a moment of truth shined through.  It began with a moment of the past – way in the past.  A mixture of high school, people who I once knew, and have not seen in a long time. Some are friends on Facebook, a face at the grocery store.  I wait in observer mode, I am placed in a chair without a name tag as all the other chairs have name tags.  This does not bother me, as I used my present name, not a maiden name; so they would not label my chair as such.

I am not sure as to the length of time that emerged, this was not important.  Other details surfaced, again not of too much importance, almost like the extras of a movie.  Then a person I went to school with from kindergarten through 12th grade showed, requested me to follow him.  There is a moment of confusion, he wasn’t a “friend,” we just attended school together; often in the same classes.  He was not allowed to be my friend, via the “mean girl crew.”  I did not fit in, and he just went along.

We enter a darkened small space, I see the buttons.  Wait, we are in an elevator.  He steps away, “they” overrode the buttons.  Others get off the elevator, this “male classmate,” says do not leave; turns his head over his shoulder; “besides; they have overridden the buttons; you will depart soon.”  I did stop the “male classmate,” Why did you appear?”  He does not respond in voice, and yet I hear “You will soon know.” 

My memory returns to an email. “You are here to defy stereo-typing.” I am more than aware, that I will ascend.  How much further up the spiral or shall we say elevator, I was not sure at that moment.

The elevator whirls, I feel my energy increase, the vibrational matter more crystalline.  The door opens, I am on top of a mountain, stadium, this does not matter.  I look down and see others; not in a condescending manner, more of a look at all who will come. I look to all of the Archangels who surround me with pure divine love and light, I say, “You overrode my buttons, the matter does not matter, I am here, I accept, I am here…all I do ask is now what….” 

I awaken in a bed I know and yet, realize that nothing from this moment on will be as it once was.  Today, I will rest.  Tomorrow I was planning on going to the Farmer’s Market and wonder well….

Rest, relax, you will have much work to do soon….quite soon….rest dear one, your living has just begun. I am okay, with the unknown; what will be will be. I will fluctuate more to the feminine; mother is near….

I do ask, “Why that “male classmate” Why not my BeLoved that once showed me a movie – ‘Click.'” My higher self responds meditate.  Through meditation I am aware that the “male classmate” has surfaced each time I have a major transition in my life, and that is all that musters through.  Triangle Heart

So, I am off to the unknown, living moment by moment, step by step; my higher self-will guide along with all the divine, angels, fairies, mystical creatures, magical creatures, Galactic Counsel and Federation of Light.  Those who will hear, will hear, those who will see will see the love and light that shine through the vastness of which is me. 

Much Love, Much Light and Magical Blessings,

Natasha